Update

So we now have 2 kids, a dog, a cat, a fish and 2 adults living in the same house that vack 4 years ago my husband told me only 3 more years.  So our son, 3, snd our daughter, 1, are sharing a room.  On a good night T doesn't wake A.  Tonight was a good night, except that i cant sleep

no more nieces and nephews

So much as happened since writing last.  I have a few ramblings but not as much as I would like....does that sound bad?  So A quick up date after I found out my sister-in-law was expecting their third, we found out we were expecting our second.  But I think it was the way that they announced it to was that was the most annoying.  "You're falling behind"  If they knew what we had to go through just to have our son would they still have said it?  We tried for 5 years before becoming pregnant with our son and we had to go on meds to have it happen.  And same for our daughter.   When we told them we were expecting "Oh, you're catching up"  They had a son and that was their last one.  My brother-in-law got fixed and they are getting rid of all the baby clothes.  They didn't bother to see if we wanted any of the girl clothes for their niece.  The other think that burns me is I feel as if I myself am not good enough for them or for my brother and his family.  I found out the day before my brother's son's dedication that I wasn't Godmother, now as much as it hurt I had a feeling I wouldn't be.  But it also stung when I wasn't chosen for my brother-in-law's son either.  What am I chopped liver?  I blame it more on the wives, but I didn't stoop to that level.  My brother and my sister-in-law are my daughter's Godparents.  I don't know how things will pan out on that.  We'll see.

I hate my husband's job.  He's missing out on his kids lives because of it.  When he sleeps most of the days away we really only see him on the weekends and than mostly on Sunday.

I have more, but sinus pressure is getting the better of me and I will have to ramble/rant some more later