Monday, November 22, 2010

So yea, I got done with work at 5 today and didn't get home till 8:45. I should have been home before my husband but I wasn't and I didn't tell him that I was gonna be anywhere tonight. But yet he didn't seem concerned about where I was. Don't get me wrong it's nice that he's that trusting, yet irrating at the same time. I mean there really isn't anything stopping me from having an affair, I WOULDN'T DREAM OF IT!!! but that's beside the point. He makes it very easy to think such thoughts.
Then he decided to start a blog and I have no problem with him starting a blog. It just seems that what he plans to discuss on the blog he won't even discuss with me. He will go in depth in an answer to a question my brother-in-law asks, but doesn't think that maybe just maybe, I should see the answer with being a newer Catholic. It'd be nice to have more teaching and knowledge on the Catholic beliefs. But like I said he doesn't seem to like to discuss things. Then from an something that he sent in an E-mail he accidental sent to everyone, he was doing his refelctions on Sunday's readings in like a homily form. Yet I wouldn't know he still wrote homilies if he hadn't accidental sent it to his whole address book.
We do a daily devotional, it's the Love Dare devotional. I'll admit I haven't done all the dares but I have done some of them. You get a week to do a dare, knowing that why wait till the second to last or last day to do the dare. Which he did and then said he didn't have time, baloney sausage. Then one of the other dares, I ended up doing his part of the dare because I wanted to buy roses for our mothers and my grandma, and I ended up buy all the roses including mine!
Am I asking to much? I think not. I still think he's set in his bachelor ways, and he's not sure how to change. I know some of it is also from his upbringing, but sometimes I feel like I'm compromising more then he is and I'm sure that's not so.

Ranting

So my husband decided to start a blog, but didn't tell me he was going to. No this really shouldn't bother me right but it did. Because he was going to do it with our faith in a secular job. Now, being a newer Catholic, I'm not up on everything that is in the faith. And I'll admit I'm still learning. There have been times when my brother-in-law asks a question and my husband will go into great lengths to anwswe him, but doesn't think to send me the E-mail so I can learn more. He has done this a few times already.
Then one other time he sent an e-mail to everyone instead of just one person, and apperantly my husband is still kinda writing homilies based on his refelctions on the Sunday readings. didn't know he still did that either.
For the most part I don't mind secrets, because yes everyone has them, but somethings shouldn't me kept secret and knowing that I'm still new and not a cradle Catholic like he is it'd be nice for some help in deeping my knowledge of my faith as I grow deeper in my faith. But what do I know, I'm on the outside looking in.